Being a PAL

I have come home and decided that as I have some free time on my hands, I will update my blog.. and am shocked to see that it was July that I last updated it... (it only took me 9 tries to remember my password!!!)

Anyway, I'm here now and that's what matters isn't it... :)

Looking at my last post, I see I mentioned my plant. The plant survived the move from the office to the house, and lasted a remarkably long time; however, did die the other day. RIP Plant, it just wasn't the same at home as in the office. I can't have plants in my new job - apparently they attract flies and everyone moans. I can't say I'm that devestated, I haven't got the greenest of fingers!

So, I've been going through a tough time recently. The new job is much more stressful that I thought it was going to be.. I only realised that today, when someone asked me "Is the job more stressful than you anticipated"... and after trying to answer in several different ways, I realised the best way to answer was "Honestly? Yes!" it's a very hard job, and I am under more stress and hearing way more emotional stuff than I thought I would be. Still, it's my job now, and I am resting in the fact that I know God led me to that job.

I've been saying to people that it's God's way of teaching me not to complain when life is boring! Yet, in all seriousness, I've been struggling with that - was I right to leave my last job just because I was bored? I was speaking with a friend today (Tony :-) who said to me that as human beings, we were designed to be fulfilled, we weren't designed to be bored. I can't tell you how relieved that made me feel, because I agree with him - he's right. We weren't designed to be bored and unfulfilled. It wasn't a bad or sinful thing to apply for my new job. The fact that this job is stressful now is not a punishment for leaving a boring and unfulfilling job!

And the fact is, that actually, although I find it hard to admit it even to myself, I am good at this job. Really good. I was shortlisted and appointed from 164 candidates, and my manager keeps saying she can't believe I've only been in the job such a short amount of time. Clearly I am a natural 'PAL'!

It's hard at the moment because there are other stress factors on my life. However... when they are all over, I think I may just enjoy being a PAL :)